This exercise consists of three parts in which part 1 will be one day from part 2 and part 3 will be one month from part 2. In other words, I will be starting other exercises while part 3 is still in progress. That is not complicated at all... the best thing to do is to just make a note of when to refer back to this exercise, which I already did for part two... I will do that tomorrow. And tomorrow I will make a note to do part three on 3/6/10. And of course there is a method for all this madness. Let's begin:
It is 2/5/10. Right now this is how I feel about myself:
Well, a little embarrassed and disappointed. I got mad at my husband and took off for a 'jog' earlier today. He drove around the neighborhood and told me to get into the truck. I got in when he said that he won’t say anything [to piss me off] anymore. He knows how to push my buttons so why does he do it? I feel like wanting to leave him. I feel that he cares for me only to push me around. I’m embarrassed that I ran around the neighborhood like a banshee and disappointed that I couldn’t control myself. But at the same time, I needed to get away from him. He pushes me over the limit. We went to look at some houses today and almost decided to put money down on a house. What a mess. I'm not sure if that is a good idea. I am afraid we are rushing the process for the wrong reasons - to fill a void, which he may regret. I won't because I am ready to move, but I thought he wanted to wait.
Ten years ago (use present tense):
It is 2/5/00. Right now this is how I feel about myself:
I am in working for Americorps and doing my graduate coursework at TWU. I am uncertain of my future. I have a boyfriend that isn’t a Christian – I like him a lot and have told him that I loved him but he doesn’t know what he wants either. I am happy with myself. I enjoy working with kids. I live with my aunt. It is rent free. I have a car and no car payment. Life is good – is it not? I feel depressed at times because I feel lonely a lot and have much time on my hands to worry. I don’t have my own things such as a house – it is difficult to do homework with limited computer and internet access because my aunt doesn’t like too much clutter in her apartment. I am worried about my sister. She is dating a dick. I am trying to become a better Christian to let go, and let God. I go to church, Bible study, and choir on a weekly basis. I practically live at church. I have needs that I want met and it is hard to fight the temptations at times. -yes, it's sex. Funny how things change. That is the least of my worries now.
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